musings

1. finally! i got the acceptance letter from palacky university. looks like the parental units are starting to give in. hmm... this might signal a whole new chapter to my existence. i wonder if i should start buying winter clothes. i definitely want a black leather jacket a la katherine heigl in roswell.
the european education system is unfamiliar territory. i'm debating with myself whether to go for the 60 ECTS points without the MA but with full-year scholarship, or go with the MA degree but with no scholarship (yet! i hope...) for the second semester. uppsala university (sweden) and universidad de deusto (spain) looks really great. should i, shouldn't i? all i can say is- it's gonna be a hell of a junket if i do...

2. i was disappointed by the sale in mango...:( as all fashionistas know, mango on sale is a time when a temporary (thank god!), yet severe and unshakeable, sickness overcomes women of all ages and they go rampaging into all the mango outlets they know. fathers, husbands, brothers, and boyfriends turn into financiers, pack mules and/or someone to stay in liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine while you go snatch up that fabulously flimsy green top which a hideously-garbed competitor is eyeing (can't she see that it's all wrong for her color?). unfortunately, this year's pickings leave much to be desired. i can't even summon up enough enthusiasm to try on this kikay top which anya would most-assuredly approve of. *sigh!* i hope they bring out some more stuff...

3. after my abject disappointment in mango, i was downright thrilled when i found a fantabulous pair of shoes in celine. it's a dark dark brown (almost black) pair of slides with a brown loop. can i just say that it is perfect for work... and play! please please please... i'm praying for a size 9 (yup, my abnormally large feet) although size 8 is pretty ok already.

4. i got 3 new books from powerbooks!!! yep, my misadventure in makati last monday led to my favorite haven- powerbooks in greenbelt 4. i got 2 "work" books, and one fun book! needless to say, it is a romance novel of the espionage persuasion. my new favorite author maryjanice davidson also came out with her new novel: hello, gorgeous! it's about a sorority sister/beautician turned cybernetic spy girl. after her undead books and the royal treatment, i can't wait to get my hands on this new treat. it's still expensive much so i'm waiting for the paperback...

song of the moment

"Cinderella Story"
Plain White T's

i heard that you've been asking about me
least that's the word on the street
i just don't know what to believe
why was i dumb enough to leave?

i saw you with him today
the boy who took my place
you seemed so much happier with me
but maybe that's just the way i want it to be

but it's just another one of those days
the way you made it all feel so right
the way you fit into my arms at night
i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life

but it's just another one of those days
i can't help but feel a little bit sad
about the things you and i never had
i had the world, but instead threw it out of the way.

now, it's just another one of those days.

so, tell me what happens next?
its out of my hands, i guess.
i just don't know what to believe.
why don't you tell me to believe.
why did you let me leave?
it's not the way it's gotta be.
what's wrong with me?
why don't you tell me to believe?
why did you let me leave?
is that the way this has to be?

but it's just another one of those days
the way you made it all feel so right
the way you fit into my arms at night
i'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life

but it's just another one of those days
i can't help but feel a little bit sad
about the things you and i never had
i had the world, but instead threw it out of the way.

now, it's just another one of those days.

top 5 of the week (so far)

top 5 shitty things:

1. traffic (45 minutes to get to cravings from xavierville)
2. freak storms
3. stupid coups
4. chinese medicine
5. bumming around

top 5 best things:

1. crossword puzzles
2. brewed iced tea
3. tortilla chips with spinach-artichoke dip
4. employment inquiries
5. friends

top 5 songs:

1. i want you to want me- letters to cleo
2. as if- blacque
3. breakaway- kelly clarkson
4. even angels fall- jessica riddle
5. cruel to be kind- letters to cleo

clients, freak storm and monster-in-law

did i just post that i was relaxed and contented for once in my misbegotten life? (ok, that might be going too far, but you get the picture.)

the day progressed well enough (read: early start, great lunch), then i had to go to school to meet up with InVent's potential clients- which included the illustrious madame and mr. events himself, jq. i wanted to go to school early to thumb through the department's copy of the eccp directory when miss kai informed me that the latest directory was missing (to the dismay of the very much irate madame). there is a very strong probability that a student (with shit for brains) decided to hoard it, or simply misplaced it. argh!

both meetings progressed well enough (if you can call the first one a meeting). madame seemed interested but detached since the event is still set for november. if she decides to dump this account on us on october- we are doubling, no, tripling the fee! we have the aaa account, i think. depends on how good our proposed program is but i think it's in the bag.

after the second meeting, the clouds decided to let loose a freak storm. simply wonderful. well, i guess the reminiscing and the vendo food brought back pretty good memories. good thing i was with anj and peej. thankfully, peej's mom came to the rescue with a trusty 4 x 4 vehicle. we dropped anj off in north, then peej and his mom very graciously brought me to gilmore. (thanks much peej and tita!)

i headed straight to centerpoint where i rendezvoused (for a francophile, this is just sooo wrong, but i'm using it, haha!) with my parents. we ate a fantastic dinner at pancake (as per usual) and ended the night with a hilarious movie. jane fonda totally rocks! *applause*

i guess if the wit-o-meter is measured by how long my mom stays awake when watching a movie- monster in law is a definite winner.

that's right, no snores.

my inner european

i should be amazed, but i'm not. here's to russians, kai kai!

Your Inner European is Russian!

Mysterious and exotic. You've got a great balance of danger and allure.

Who's" Your Inner European?

relaxed and contented

who'd figure blogging would be such a relaxing experience?

after my close encounter with death via the toilet bowl (aka the expressway to hell), i wanted a less painful (and less expulsive) activity to fill my golden days as a bum. hence, i cranked up my computer and started working.

nope, this isn't work- this is practice. submitting employment inquiry letters to prospective employers is work. *nod* *nod*

hopefully, they'd take a look at the cv that i enclosed and be totally blown away by my academic prowess and other achievements. *natch!*

while waiting for their positive replies *crosses fingers*, i did get a nibble from one of the "what?!" letters i sent last may. if all goes well, i MIGHT be employed by a specialty bookstore (oh rapture!) of course, this would be fantastic news for me, and a headache for my parents. i guess they haven't given up on the dream that someday i'll wake up and realize that i want a respectable job (and life) in the corporate world. sorry to disappoint the parentals but that's not likely to happen. i'm leaving all the business mumbo jumbo to my dear ol' brother and sister. i'm sure they will do quite well in that dog-eat-dog world.

i prefer swimming with the sharks.

chomp! roar! burp! excuse me...

from kai kai's page. had fun doing this. and it did not amaze me in the least that we're the same creature.

Raptor ROAR! You're 81% Dinotastic!!

Aren't you a clever one? Nearly everone is scared of you. The ones who aren't generally end up as lunch. You like the finer things in life, like a good hunt, a good triceratops steak, and a relaxing evening discussing the finer points of evolution in the Jurrasic and Cretaceous Periods. Stomping around and Biting everything in sight isnt your style. You are too classy for that. But still, who can resist a good chomping when the opportunity arises?

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Dinopoints

Link: youallwantme on The what Dinosaur are you Test written by Ok Cupid

another week down the drain

ugh... i know i said i wanted to find a job and get it over with, but it's just not working. aside from the fact that i have to make a decision about the scholarship for czech republic, there is just a definite dearth of jobs for people like me. my signature rantings have driven me closer to an early grave... unfortunately, it didn't leave me 6-feet under the fertilizer.... drat!

oh well, i guess it's back to the drawing board, my wonderful job/career matrix and even more job huntings. i just don't get how i can have a number of job offerings and decide that i don't want them. picky much?

so, list of things to decide on:
1. scholarship in czech republic- is it really worth it? and how the hell do i get to olomouc from prague? gak!
2. current vocation- foreign service [if i pass that shitty test], academe, corporate world?
3. nanyang, beijing or shanghai for further studies in the chinese language
4. master's in international political economy (ipe)- ntu, anu, fordham, ack!!!

maybe i should just accidentally fall on anya's pointy stilettos and spare myself the agony of making decisions... then again, she would not appreciate having her precious footwear covered with blood.

blank canvas

a blank canvas has such a great allure. it's just waiting for a little bit of inspiration, a little bit of emotion, a little bit of corruption...

it represents hopes, expectations, new beginnings- a recreation of life, perhaps.

it tempts the artist, taunts the writer and titillates the creator into forever disturbing the waiting, blank expanse of space with the pens, brushes and other materials of the mind, heart and soul- in the hope of creating something honest, worthwhile and true.

it has been ages since i've stopped writing for the sake of writing. recently, homework, research papers and other portfolios occupied my time. now that they're temporarily placed on-hold, perhaps i can find my inner muse once again. perhaps i could compose poems and stories like i did once upon a time.

*snort* hah!

or maybe i just felt like starting another one of those journals that has no sense, no purpose at all- just a disjointed melange of my incomprehensible ramblings and irate rantings about life, politics and being undead and unemployed. isn't this gonna be a party?

for those who know me, this would be completely out-of-character. it would be something they totally wouldn't expect. oh well, let's just see if my friends' stalking skills are as great as they claim...