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Which Rock Chick Are You?

bru

stephie is my oldest friend ever (i.e. we've known each other since we were 5 and scared shitless in kindergarten). we've had our share of hair-pulling, screechy shouting, fighting over who gets the chocolate sundae (and who gets the icky strawberry-flavored one), and big yellow raincoated embarrassing moments (sshhh...). we would fight over the most trivial and weirdest stuff ever... (who ended up with the chocolate sundae anyway?)

if i were to define my days in ica, stephie would figure into a lot of those experiences. while i am the maldita, matapang, socially-retarded nerd who doesn't give a fuck about what other people say about her, stephie is the nice, friendly girl-next-door type who's practically friends with everyone she meets. regardless of our differences, we love one another like sisters.

after graduating from ica, we didn't see each other anymore. hard to do when one studied in espana, and the other in katipunan. specially hard since one was the comelec chair, and the other was gunning for honors. but we did our best through phone calls, text messages, yms, emails, and friendster (heh). we updated each other on important milestones (e.g. boyfriend- needless to say, not mine ;p), problems and whatevers whenever we could find the time to talk.

i loved the fact that stephie managed to grow and become stronger in unfamiliar territory. she took on responsibilities, which would have felled lesser people. she strengthened her skills and discovered new talents. she became a part of a couple (which i still don't have the strength or the inclination for), and fought for (still fighting, actually) her happiness.

our fateful meeting today made me realize that she's still the stephie who cries at the drop of the hat. she's still the stephie who calls on me for support (and ass kicking). she's still the stephie who loves alternative music.

but something has changed- she's now the stephie with a stubborn streak, and a will of iron that most people would never realize lies under all that cotton-candy charm. sometime between ica graduation and today, stephie has truly matured into a capable woman who can do anything she puts her mind to.

i love you very very much, bru. don't let anything break you down. i promise you'll live through this. now go back to work and remember MWF!

for the love of bubu

as anyone who knows me pretty well would know... i love my little sister to itty bitty little pieces.

i really don't understand why this is so... she's bossy, demanding, a slob (look who's talking- i know, i know- but she really elevates slobbishness into an art form), annoying, bratty, and everything the baby of the family is and could be (yes, all the stereotypes apply).

this usually gets me into trouble because i find myself reliving high school trigonometry, history, economics, english, physics (which i don't mind), et al.

anyway, this post is super lost because i just came home from a day in hell (i.e. alliance francaise, makati med, dfa). they all look so unassuming (lies! lies! lies!).

point is (is there one?)... i know my sister will get what she wants and what she needs.

cheers, bubu! study hard for the acet or i'll come back (when/if i leave ;p) and kick your ass 'til you do.


kambeng and snoopy's lss selection for acet, chad michael murray and james lafferty

i don't wanna be
gavin degraw

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
See, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be

weekend report # 3

it has been a hell of a week.

fantastique!
1. essca is a go!!! bonjour, angers! au revoir, philippines!
2. j'irai avec cher.
3. a different bookstore's production process is going well, and right on schedule.
4. ceram sophia antipolis reply. merci beaucoup, m. kane!
5. lyon reply. merci beaucoup, mme. claudel!
6. translation job! finally!
7. mom's and pj's birthdays
8. uno cheesecake
9. mean girls!
10. lancaster letter. if only your scholarships were bigger...
11. mme. nadege picquenard. merci beaucoup!
12. singapore airlines. more krisflyer miles!
13. car and paul
14. italian loaf!!! heaven in a loaf with cream cheese.

merde!
1. nso
2. malacanang
3. dfa
4. visa requirements
5. la pluie
6. perverts
7. les depenses des preuves d'authenticite, de la traduction et tout!
8. stupid things (i.e. boys, jobs, flu, tests) that make my girlfriends cry, sick or miss quality wow time.
9. pms and gushing like a faucet (moses has nothing on me)
10. missing everyone... eventhough i'm still here

the cat's out of the bag

finally... after the self-imposed silence on the matter, i can talk about it now.

yes, i turned down the czech republic scholarship. my parents, actually my mom, put their foot down on that. no way was she sending me out (alone!) to the boondocks of a former communist country. right... she just won't listen when i tell her that it is not like mother russia. ahia and lord were far more supportive... of course, they had more to gain- in the form of hot eastern european chicks.

in lieu of that scholarship, i decided to apply for the scholarship/exchange student program in angers, france. trust me when i say that it was a whirlwind application. essca is a fantastic world-renowned grande ecole for business and management, and it is situated in angers of the beautiful loire valley region. i'm going with cher cher, a great pal since my ica days, and some other ateneans.

my visa application is going smoothly, after the mishaps in nso, malacanang and dfa (misadventure story for the kadiri gang). i'm gonna be claiming my triple-authenticated birth certificate from dfa on tuesday, and forwarding it together with my diploma to the alliance francaise for translation. i have a medical check-up with dr. paul tan, the french embassy's accredited medical consultant, on monday.

busy busy girl...

one question though: why do the job interviews and offers come when i'm already set in my plans to go to france?

weekend report #2

busy busy week, no time to post my usual serving of bull...

clap clap clap:
1. good project proposal (pat on back)
2. spent a wet (but wonderful) day with kai kai. the food trips will never end. *burp!*
3. attended an edifying orientation par m. blamont. (merci beaucoup, madame)
4. full-speed application (hopefully...)
5. declined gracefully (hopefully...)
6. more academic inquiries (why do brits have such a high standard of living?)
7. finally spent time with car again! whoopdeedoo!
8. ahia's back with goodies
9. FANTASTIC FOUR!!!
10. barbecue popcorn from the promenade cinema (nica, you're a god!)
11. seeing baraternity members
12. french lessons coming up...
13. did 10 laps!!!
14. john steakley's vampire$- so much better than the movie, james woods cannot even begin to define jack crow's character

ugh moments...
1. rain rain, go away, go annoy some other dinky lil' country
2. flat wallet >:(
3. stupid visa requirements- actually, no, stupid government inefficiency
4. fully-booked flights
5. still no exercise... wait! i went swimming today!
6. the making of shob's ateneo essay
7. totally forgot about a job interview (i'm turning into such a craphead myself, where the hell's the discipline?)
8. blisters
10. olli's mom- may she rest in peace

weekend report

i've decided to make a weekend report to take stock of the decisions i've made (and didn't make), the accomplishments i've done (pat on back), the mistakes i've inevitably committed (moron!), and whatever bloody asinine comments i feel like making in the course of the rundown.

good job:
1. decided to accept a consultancy job (this one's still iffy... i still feel like bumming)
2. on the other hand, since it's for a specialty bookstore and it's events/marketing... oh rapture!
3. managed to exert tremendous self-control when shopping for books... *sniff* sinclair is calling out to me, so're blair, selena and nate.
4. good ideas for the bc with matching pictures (which aren't so good) for collaterals
5. i think i managed to convince the eu freshies that eu is a stupendous course.
6. puccini's nessun dorma
7. war of the worlds
8. pancake house's mmc2- yum yum!
9. house of wax ost!!!
10. uploaded aaa pictures to InVent's repository of files

fuck ups:
1. sloth... just can't shake it off me
2. lack of a decision about palacky... i wonder if dr. slabakova wants to kick my ass now... *scratch head*
3. gluttony... bigger problem (if i commit 2 of the 7 deadly sins, does that mean an expressway to hell?)
4. fso exam... this isn't really my fuck up, more like the government's (we have suffered enough!!! release the stupid results already!!!)
5. no more exercise [this one's iffy, too, i definitely prefer reading and conceptualizing over sweating like a bloody animal (of the porcine family)]
6. dial-up internet connection
7. government corruption and all the fuck ups that go with it
8. not yet done cleaning up the study room (but it was off to a good start, i promise)

that's it for now...

LSS

come on
letters to cleo

you can talk
you can talk about it yeah......
if i'm wrong
if I'm wrong i'll take your blame
you can talk
and as the hours slip away
as my own
i can call another day

come on, come on
to my embrace
how you sleep so easy is
a mystery

i've got my ear
pressed to the glass
pressed to the wall
i wasn't sure
but i think i got it all
and it was too late
for any lame apologies
by the way
it's your second face i didn't see
about what i heard
and i just can't believe it's true
all the things i didn't know about you
so won't you

come on, come on
a lie awaits
how you sleep so easy is
a mystery

won't you
come on, come on
to my embrace

so you can talk
and as the hours slip away
as my own
i can call another day
about what i heard
and i just can't believe it's true
all of things i shoulda known about you
so won't you

come on, come on
to my embrace
how you sleep so easy is
a mystery

won't you
come on, come on
to my embrace
how you sleep so easy

london

and so another tragedy strikes.

after the devastations in new york and madrid, you'd think the powerful western world would realize the havoc they could wreak with a simple decision to wage war on "rogue" states. every action has an equal and opposite reaction. although the number of victims in the us and europe cannot compare to the number of victims in afghanistan and iraq, the sense of security and freedom in the free world has been severely diminished- particularly for the relatives of those who died.

i pray for the victims and their families- be they in the cosmopolitan west or the war-ravaged states. for the many civilians who face the stark reality of the world today, may your deaths and sacrifices be not in vain. may those in power realize that war should never be an option.

lotsa things

1. aaa testimonial dinner- our very first event as InVent was a success. good job everyone!

2. today is my pseudo start-of-work day. goodbye to bumhood, hello to moolah?

3. today i will talk to a bunch of eu freshies about misconceptions, the eu program, and the eu student.

4. i want maryjanice davidson's undead and unappreciated and hello, gorgeous! i've been suffering from sinclair (finklair!) deprivation since the last undead book.

5. i want an ipod... or the new sony walkman that's not yet available in the philippines.

6. please do not rain today. i have a lot of places to go to and too little time to do so.

7. i can actually imagine anya decked out in designer golf threads and set to conquer an 18-hole golf course. don't worry dude, you may not be earning as much as the old fogeys there but i'm sure as hell you'll be the most fashionable golfer- hands down.

8. anj: like jess, the boss can be brought to heel if you know his/her weak spots. hehehe...

9. oh, i'm suffering from kai-kai and nice deprivation too!! kai: school sucks! nice: work sucks more!

and last but definitely not the least...

10. fantastic four opens today!!! chris evans rocks!

parce que je suis sophistique

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evil beware...

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't believe in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

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undead and unemployed

everyone's working except me...

this wait and see situation sucks... i want to go to the czech republic but something is holding me back. is it my parents? or me? if it's my parents, i can totally understand that. they don't want me to go to a strange, communist country all by my lonesome. (i tried to tell them that the czech republic is now a member of the eu and should be democratic and politically (and economically) stable to be able to become a member in the first place, but did they listen?) of course my wonderful brother already suggested another option. he'll go with me (at the expense of the parentals, of course), help me settle in, and go gallivanting off with hot eastern european women (and they are many). i do think he's planning on doing the exact same thing when the time comes for me to go to spain. ole!

but what if it's me? what if i don't want to go? what if i think that it's not something that will fit into my career in the long-run? the thought really does scare me. here i am thinking what a wonderful junket it's gonna be, but afraid to venture out there because i might be wasting my time?! what the fuck's that?!

(alter ego: pussy!)

what about my grand adventure? what about the chance to finally prove to myself that i can be an independent woman alone in a world that does not speak a hell of a lot of english? without my family to support me; without my friends for coffee/tea, comfort and late-night laet fests?

i desperately need a sign to know where i'm going. too much thinking on my part makes me more confused than ever (plus, my head's starting to hurt).

so where do i start looking?

bloody hell...